Victory, conquering, staggeringloss, nothing, nothing, everything

"Victory, conquering, staggerin gloss, nothing, nothing, everything.
Like walking through a tunnel searching for light and then it hits you and you feel nothing.
Like wanting the sea and getting a river

(...)
I'm neither happy or sad it's over but I am ready to move on.
Slowly.
Patiently.
(...)
It's almost like I miss my darkest days or maybe I haven't found the right things to replace the dark with yet.
I still want more,
more,
more,
of whatever I can get my hands on."